Matter of Being Urself

"be urself..dun try to be anybody else!!"

common word rite???

ok...serba sedikit pengajaran berkenaan perkara yg dah berlaku

Yes..we have to be ourselves
dun try to be anybody else...
We r we..them r them...
Keep up the gud work!!!

Yes..no one will come and offering
"do u mind?...i want to be ur angel"
or...
"get a job..n we will be together until death do us apart"
but bear in mind..
it might be the matter of time..
ur very bloody time has'nt arrive yet
Believe in ur self...sum 1 is waiting u at the corner
Wait for u to hold her hand
Wait for u to kiss her lips
Wait for u..till the day we die

It s the matter of faith..
Fucking hell..if there no one in this god forsaken world
That madly in love with u
N love u the way u are
Love the way u talk
The way u eat
The way u sleep
The way u blah3....

yes..for this time being
no one cud accept u
u still have no one by ur side..
still mentioning bout ur weekness
u r no good for them..
or possibly ths word..

"its impossible for me to be with him..he's not my type anyway"

wutever u tryin to do..
u still not the best..u still can't win her heart..
in my opinon..its not ur fault
as u have tryin ur best..
its all bcoz she already have another soul in her heart
another heart..u now wut i mean
u can do whatevr things u wanna do
but still..u not for them..
never gonna meant for them..
her heart are not for you to hold..

when 1 door close..another door opens
which door???
go2!search for the door
or sit here..waiting and wishing
till the day u die
dun be such a loser...

but!

eventhough u have to be urslelf
u have to imporve urself
u noe that u r full of weekness
u r full of darkside
u r too fucking lazy to doin things even for urself
I mean..u r an asshole
yup..still urself and urself
Y dun u stand up..look at the window
N wondering y do i alwez fail
Is it all bcoz of me...?

Let me tell u..ya!it all bcoz of u
Tell me..which gurl want an arsehole to be by her side
only an arsehole love an arsehole
did u get that..?
u want sumtin beautiful..u have to be wonderful
u want sumtin big..u have to be bigger
U noe..that u have no money,cars,proper job wutsoeva..
so y dun u tackle on ur attitude?
u gud fuckin attitude i mean..
ya3..it still urself..
but y dun u change?
into a new u...not the old bloody useless u!!
stand up..improve urself...
try to be a better man..
believe in me..sumday...
there will be sumone crawling into u...

its not only a matter of love
it s the matter of life
u have to be gud..
look at other people..
wut is their best...
make them as an example..take the gud tings
stll..u r ur bloody fuckin self..

life is a competition
fight for ur right...
let me remind u..

"she will alwez go for a better man"

yup...feel suck being urself without gaining anythng
envy look at the other peolple..
how come it so fuckin easy for them..

"owh..wut a great person anyway..lucky to be him"

FOR FUCK SAKE!!KNOCK IT OFF!!

Get up from ur sleep
Do a change..dun let them undersetimate u
u can be better than them..believe me
u will feel great by being urslef then...


Jadilah diri kita sndiri
tp berubah lah...
jgn terus berada pd level yg same
jgn trus jdik sampah
bia la org tgok kite pki mate
bukan pakai kepale lutot..
kite same je ngan org laen
yg berbeza hanyalah attitude
dan hala tuju kita...
aku da dpat pengajaran lepas aku lalui sume nie

entry ni untuk sume org
dan diri aku sendiri
maaf for the rubbish englsh
i feel like speakin 2day..

cheerss..

I hate the light

Sme mcm sem lepas...
Aku sndri lagi kt dlm bilik..
Housemate ramai yg da blek..
Tgal sorg dua je...
Btw..td last paper aku untuk final sem nie

Sem lpas...
Aku ade agenda untuk stay kt mlake
walaupon sbelom2 nie..lpas2 abes paper last
Aku tros cabot blek jb
Tp last sem..1st time aku x mcm tuh..
Aku nk jpe ngan pink..kteorg da janji
Ye la..sbelom aku cuti lame kn..hmmm
Mlm tu sme mcm mlm nie..aku sorg2
Aku xtau nk watpe...wat ni x kne..wat tu x kne
Aku pusing sane-sini nk pnjm kete
Tp sume org nk pki..
aku trun bwah carik no kete sewa..
aku try kol..tp sume x dapat
aku tbalkan muke g pujuk mbr2 aku
nk pnjam kete..walaupon dirg da ckp x bole
Ntahla...aku sgup wat ape je...
asal aku dpat kua ngan pink esoknya..

Pg bsoknye..awal aku bgun
maseh ngan agenda yg same
nk crik kete..aku ade tpikir kn lubang2 yg aku rase aku bole pancing dpt pnjam
tp sbelom tu..aku msg pink..
die ckp..die xley nk kua mse tuh..
tbe2 akak die dtg..nk jpe die..
so die xley nk jpe aku...
Ape yg aku rase mse tu?sgt bullshit kot
Dan 1 ari tu dia asek mara2 aku je..aku xtau knape
Aku stay untuk dia...
Ok fine aku xdpat jpe dia..
Tp ckupla dia wat aku hepi ari tu ngan x yah nk mara2 aku...
aku mmg kne jpe dia gak..
sbab nk amek laptop aku n nk pulangkan kura2 yg die mtak tlog aku belakan

mlm tu spatotnya indah...
spatotnya aku keluar ngan die bersame fared dan aweknya
tp evrytin was mess up...
Mlm tu..fared ngan bebesar hati nye
nk tman aku jln2...
kesian kat aku katenye...
aku ajak tgok wyg..diorg on
pastu kteorg lpak hang tuah ngan pantai puteri kot
bertiga...2 jiwa..1 hati..
bsoknya..aku jpe pink kt mc..
dia ckp sori..smalam dia moody..
dia sje mmg xnk jpe..
n she was at dataran pahlawan with her fwens
damnnnnn!!!!sgt sket ati kot
n...aku x sangke perjumpaan tu yg terakhir untuk kami

mlm ni...
aku ulangi perkara yg same..
tp aku xtau ats sbab ape
atas sbab ape aku mseh dimelaka...
sorg2 mcm org bodo..rse cm nk mpos je..

hmmm...ntahla

kte tukar topic la..
tau x aku bencikan cahaya?
cahaya lampu dan cahaya matahari
trok kn?

kalau kt uma..cbe la tanye kt family aku
spe yg slalu suro tutop lampu?
kt cni pon sme...blik aku mmg jrg terang kalau xde hal yg penting
aku lbih slesa berada dlm keadaan gelap...
aku jgak lah yg slalu menutup lampu hall dan branda lua
ntah..aku rse rimas...
dlm bilik air pon sme..tp kalau mlm..mmg bkak lampu la
kalau siang2 hari..slagi aku bole nampak kt dlm bilik air tuh
aku xkn bkak lampu..
walaupun org laen siang2 hari mandi,berak pon bkak lampu
aku yg akan suro diorg tutop blek lampu kalau diorg bkakkn lampu..
haha..smpai diorg kate aku takot tgok k**** aku sndri..bodo!!!

tp!lau aku sorg2 kt uma..
aku akan bkak sume lampu yg ade...
sbenanye..aku pnakot..walaupon aku sukekan gelap..plik2

i hate the light

i am the ressurrection and i am the light..=)

Faff off!!

ye la kn...
ble kte diam..kte ye kn je ckp org
kte pcaye je ckp org..
org wat kte..kte diam kn
xpe..bg die menang..bg die puas ati
bia die igt die tu da bgus sgt..

aku ade beberape prinsip yg aku pegang..

1.jgn wat org..bia la org nk wat kte cne pon

2.lawan la api ngan air..jgn ngan api gak

3.xyah nk panjangkn cite..diam suda..bia org tu pham sndri

4.x gune nk mlawan blek..bia kte wat cre halus je
bia die rse malu ngan diri dia sndri

tp 2 la..

stakat nie...da 4-5 kali aku dgr ayat nie

"lu lembut sgt gob..x bole cm 2"

dan ayat nie..

"x ley la diam..diam2..org pijak kpale kite"

so i guess enough is enough
aku bkan yg jnis mara2
mulot aku mmg mcm pukimak
tp lau aku mara..smpai bile je tahan?
Aku nie mcm perempuan..mara skejap je kot
dan ade sikit sifat bapak aku..

bapak aku slalu kua ayat nie..bile die rase dikhianati
dan bile die rase org aniaya die atau x respect die

"bia la.."

dan itulah aku...
dari dulu...
mse diploma..ade si shah yg jdik backbone aku
backup aku sane sini
pg sound tegak kt org yg memandang rendah kat aku
skarg nie pon alhamdulilah
dah ade kawan baru yg ganti...
yg paham aku cne..

biasalah aku..ayat same..

"biala..."

prangai wa..wa lg suke diam
bkan diam x cite msalah atau pendam masalah ke ape
aku ade prob.aku msti critenye kt org..
cume tgok org la..
aku bkan jnis yg simpan dalam ati..pastu jdik bodo
aku maksudkan..aku akn diam bile org wat aku
org ngalan lebih2..nganjeng lbey2..\
yg wat aku..x pkir prasaan aku..yg aniaya aku
perli tahap babi..smapai org len yg dgr jdik panas
tp aku bole cool lg..
kt lua ye la..nmpak cm cool
kt dalam..org x tau ati kristal nie da retak seribu..
tp aku wat line clear
"bia la..diam suda..bia die pnat sndri"


tp aku rse mkin lame..mkin dipijak

hmmm

so bg sape2 yg blom knal aku..expect unexpected
blog nie..aku tulis untuk kepuasan diri aku
aku rse relieve bile da post sumtin kt blog nie
lbey kurg cm aku luahkan kt org la..
kalau ade yg nk bce..bce la..thanx a lot!!
kalau ade yg nk coment..yes,silakan..thanx jugak..

tapi!!!

kalu nk coment tuh...
ayat tu xyah nk mcm pukimak sgt bole x?
alo bro..lu knal wa sgt ke?
lu tau ke wa cne?stakat lu dgr org ckp..
lu xyah la nk judge mcm2..faff off oke?
pg mpos kt wa la..wa nk lembik ke nk kuat ke nk emo ke.
wa rse wa x kaco lu berak kn..?lu nk susah ape..
do i ask for ur shoulder to cry on?x kn?
lu kalau nk samok..pg je samok
sbab wa tgok lu mmg da samok skunk nie..meriah je wa tgok ea..bgos la
lu pon xyah nk jdik babi sebok nk nyondol bontot org..
org suro wat..wat je..padahal tau bde 2 x btol
alo..otak ltak kt ibu jari kaki ape?
wa rse lu silap org la nk sound..lu x rase cm tu ke ar sial?
xyah nk sebok kn wa la...
nk ckp wa cm tu la cm ni la..lu pg btolkn diri lu tu dulu..
lu knal wa takat mane je?mcm mane lu nk paham wa?
weh..lu pg blek..pg cebok muke lu tu!
dah mcm taik da wa tgok...
lu ngan kawan lu tu da bole pg mpos la!!
fuck u..fuck u very2 much..derrrrr....
fuck off u little lyin cunt!!faff off u fuckin twats!!!
fuck!fuck!fuck!!!bloody moron!!suck ur own ball la!!!

Story..story..story

got so much story to share with

but i guess i was all sad

story bout this and this and blah3

sorry..i'm not in the mood for blogging

n sorry..i've deleted my fb account

juz can't stand it anymore

god bless u all...cheerss

Funny Little Frog

You're my picture on the wall,
You're my vision in the hall,
You're the one I'm talking to,